It's not just my opinion when i say to people, i'm the cloesst anyone is ever going to get to my sister.
it's fact,
and i have all the necessary evidence to prove it.
fact number one: she had a great ability, to have little kids and animals love her. i've never really had that ability before. ever since she's been away, animals come up to me most of the time with a happy feeling to their hearts, and that they know i'll care for them. also, animals have become a great love of mine. i love God's little creatures. Also with my little cousins, who used to play with charly a lot, always come to me now. they freaking love me, like they see her in me. it seems a lot of little kids have been so nice to me lately.
fact number two: realization. what do i mean by that? people know they can't see charly in a physical form again, so when they see me, they realize how close i was to my sister. they see me as a representation to her, like i look like her, i sort of carry her traits, etc etc. this one ties into the next two facts.
fact number three: inseparable. when me and her were at a younger age, we were known to be inseparable. we were always together whenever we could be. yeah, maybe as we started growing up, we started fighting more, and other things happened, but we always had that love for each other, even though we didn't show it. like a couple weeks before she died, me and her were playing a few video games, and we were getting along so well. i had missed those times. i remember the last games i played with her were cool spot and super mario world for the snes. i remember one of those games, something glitchy and funny happened, and that's always something that stuck with us from our past. when we were little, and near the end, we kept that sort of feeling. even though i don't know about her most, she was always in my heart so dear, and i'm sure saying all this, she can agree with completely.
fact number four: anger. she sure had a lot of anger in her. it wasn't her fault though. i wouldn't like to have been sick all the time either. it was just annoying. after her passing, it's like i gained the anger. i've been so angry for the past few months lately, and every little thing irritates me, all i want to do is be alone, and blah blah blah. anyways, it's like i took her major downside, but also what made a part of her, which made her so funny and great. i can remember playing the wii when my sister would bring it over, and she'd be playing the baseball, and words would be coming out of her mouth every time she missed the ball. it's quite funny when she did it. anyone else does it, it's not so funny.
fact number five: tattoo. everyone who knows the purpose of my tattoo, knows it for my sister, hands down. my bat representation. we talked it over. this is what we decided. and that was one of the first days in a long time i saw that thought of her toning down and understanding about caring in such a different way. she actually said that was so sweet of me that i wanted to do it. i haven't heard something like that in a long time from her.
fact number six: family. of course, she's my little sister. not was. she is. since i am blood related to her too you know, and born so close to her, than anyone else in my family. need i say more?
it's not opinion that i'm the closest anyone is going to get to my sister, it's fact.
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